December 16, 2007
I placed an order at scrapbookpictures.com for about 100 prints.
I placed WAY too many orders online with 2Peas, Scrapbook.com, JenniBowlin.com, and A Cherry On Top to build up my stash again.
Even went so far as to buy and assemble (while on the phone with Lulu - I'm quite talented you know) 4 storage cabinets for my new haul.
Except... I'm feeling intimidated. Just a bit. And broke. Definitely feeling broke.
Here's some of the goodies I'll be knee deep in when the postman finally finds our house under the 6" of snow we got yesterday.
December 11, 2007
December 6, 2007
December 5, 2007
One thing I’d grab if my house were on fire: Aside from my children and my file box of essentials - my camera (Canon Rebel XTi)
One thing I wish I could throw away: Clothes that don't fit me
One thing I’ll never, ever throw away: The letters my husband wrote to me while overseas with the Navy
Something I’ve kept since childhood: My love of all things crafty
A food item I never run out of: Ketchup - I have to buy it by the gallon for the kids, it seems
A household brand I’m very loyal to: Jif
Something I sleep with every night: My prayers
One thing that’s on my wish list: A better paying job
Something I take with me wherever I go: My purse
Something that makes me smile when I see it: Mabel's grin
Something my children fight over: ANYTHING
Something I hate to clean: Windows. I don't do them. Period.
Something I show off when people visit: My pictures
Something I hide when people visit: Laundry
Something I collect: Craft works-in-progress, vintage Corelle cups
Something I avoid at all costs: Washing windows
Something that reminds me of my mother: Angels - she loves them
The best gift I’ve ever received: My husband got me my camera for my birthday/Christmas last year (though it was like pulling teeth to convince him how much I wanted it) - but the better gift (though I use it less) came a month later after I discovered I was pregnant with Mabel - a matching zoom lens for the camera - his "thank you for having my baby" gift to me.
I tag Lulu again!
December 4, 2007
I doubt I'll have the time to work on any at all before Christmas, but I bought the patterns to keep myself busy. You can get the patterns for these and other lovely softies from anapaulaoli.etsy.com here ----> http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=9639.
December 3, 2007
I guess you could say that I've set about to figure myself out all over again. I don't know how long it's going to take me - an ongoing process, probably. It's important and good for me. It's good for my kids. I hope it will force me to do things to take care of myself on a regular basis (I'm making a hair appointment soon!). I think doing the 52-week thankful binder over the course of the next year will help as well.
I also remembered that Elsie Flannigan had a famous questionnaire on her blog, originally penned by Bernard Pivot. Here are those questions, answered by me.
- What is your favorite word? Today, it's "faith." It means SO much to me. "Mother" is a wonderful word, too. Incidentally, it also works beautifully (in some situations) with #5 as well. Oooh - and "Dude"- I use that one a LOT.
- What is your least favorite word? "Psychotic." It's an ugly, ugly word.
- What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally? Creatively: Seeing someone else's memory keeping stash - like Emily or Cathy's thankful book I just mentioned... pictures of someone else's home decor. Spiritually: My best friend, Lulu... the fond and deep memories I have of my upbringing in a Christian environment. Emotionally: I find emotion in all types of things, some of them happy and some of them sad... Most things that I find intertwined with love and relationships with people are chock full of emotion... I am perfectly capable of displaying every emotion that exists within one single conversation.
- What turns you off? Lack of accountability, dishonesty, poor ethics/morals (yes, that makes me judgemental by accident)
- What is your favorite curse word? This is a no-brainer... the F bomb, of course. :) I find it to be a noun, a verb, and an adjective all at once - that's one effective word!
- What sound or noise do you love? Right now, the sounds my daughter makes while she's sleeping - it's a cross between snoring, breathing, and cooing and it's the most darling and relaxing sound I know.
- What sound or noise do you hate? The noise my boys make when they're fighting - like really onto each other about something stolen, unfair, or mean. It makes me sad that siblings must be so mean to one another sometimes.
- What profession other than your own would you like to attempt? I've always pretended to be a doctor. :) Realistically, I could teach if I went back and got my teaching certificate. I could also work somewhere in marketing, which I would also love. I am a chameleon, I tell ya.
- What profession would you not like to do? General manager or big shot at a big company. Big headache - no thank you. I would also not want to deal with anything that included abuse, neglect, or harm towards children.
- If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates? It does exist. "Welcome home."
Some others I thought of just for fun:
- Favorite color? I have a hard time with this simple question. I'll narrow it down to pink and orange - I can't pick just one!
- Favorite flower? Gerbera daisies.
- Longtime ambition? To be a wonderful mother. To succeed in raising my children to be moral, faithful, and compassionate people full of love, understanding, and creativity.
- With millions of dollars, what would you do? The obvious - pay off all of my bills and put money aside for the kids to go to Harvard if they want to. I'd buy a small house in a great neighborhood and pay for a lawn service. I'd put money aside for my retirement and my mother's retirement. I'd buy Lulu and Rog a big house with plenty of romper room. I'd take my kids, my best friend and her family, and my mother to Disneyworld. I'd take my mother to Holland to revisit where I was born. Lulu and I would spend a holiday in London trying to hunt down the entire cast of Love Actually. I'd also quit my job so that I could finally be a stay at home mom.
- Name one of the most influential people in your life. I choose 3. First, my mother. She raised me to be wholesome and naive in a good way, to not be ashamed of holding my head up and taking the high road. Class. She taught me to love Jesus and to go to Him with my every fault, blessing, and need. She taught me to be a wonderful mother and a great housekeeper, lol. Second, my best friend, Lulu. She appeared in my life by the hand of God. She is an absolute angel on this Earth. She inspires me to be a better woman, a better scrapbooker, a better mother, and a better Christian. She is inherently good and generous and I love surrounding myself with her friendship and love. Thirdly, my BeckAY. She has an extremely good and generous heart. She loves me for who I am and I love her right back. She (I hope) will help me to reinitiate operation: thong and reteach me how to be a single gal again, should I need that.
- Favorite television show? Grey's Anatomy, hands down. I also love Extreme Makeover: Home Edition and those true-life forensic investigation shows on Bio/A&E/Discovery channel. Oh, Dude - I almost forgot about The Golden Girls!
- Best compliment anyone ever gave you? I love that my best friend told me that my class was showing. Both of my best girls told me once that I was "funny ha-ha". I love to make them both laugh - makes me feel like I have been able to fill them up with a small ounce of the same joy that they give me.
I'm tagging Lulu. :)
That's it for today.
November 30, 2007
(that's the pink hat my mommy made me - it looks goofy but it's totally snuggly)
Hey... what's on my shirt?
Yep, I'm cute. Wearing a hat again.
Here's one my mommy took of me and Nana last night for the sole purpose of exploiting my superfatness. Yes, I am only 9 weeks old and I already weigh 12 lbs. I am aware. I may be pear-shaped. I am okay with that. She keeps calling me her little hippopotamus. I think it's a compliment.
And finally, here I am with my big brothers. Isn't funny how they don't look alike at all but I look like both of them? Wacko, I tell ya.
And here are Darth Vader (can you see Andy's eyes in there, lol?) and the ninja (I personally dislike ninja costumes or anything violent, but he begged and begged).
That's it folks. Yes, really. I took 3 pictures of the boys before they left and they are all 3 exactly the same. Mabel wore an adorable Halloween print playsuit with pumpkin hat, but I didn't even get a picture of it. I have no idea how I'm going to scrap Halloween this year. :(
November 28, 2007
Grace by Kate Havnevik (from the Grey's Anatomy Season 2 Soundtrack)
I’m on my knees
are left for me to hold
Don’t know how
But I’ll get by
Slowly pull myself together
(I’ll get through this)
There’s no escape
So keep me safe
This feels so unreal
Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace
I feel the cold
Like from another world
Come what may
I won’t fade away
But I know I might change
Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it was
Turn my grief to grace
Nothing comes easily
Where do I begin?
Nothing can bring me peace
I’ve lost everything
I just want to feel your embrace
I cannot explain to you what hearing this song does to me right now. It is such clarity, such grief for the changes that surround me, such utter loneliness that comes over me when I hear it. Those feelings break way to me praying, as if I am speaking directly with God Himself about my life. After all, He is in control of it and while I may be terrified beyond belief, I really must b.r.e.a.t.h.e and have faith.
Now, in the evenings I often send the boys downstairs to play and I watch some Lifetime. Me and Mabel really love Lifetime (how sad is that, lol). Anyway, I never watched the show 'Reba' when it was on, but I really like it now. The very first time I heard it come on I was hooked - the song at the intro had tears streaming down my cheeks. While the entire song (though good) doesn't speak to me, a certain verse does:
I'm A Survivor by Reba McIntyre
My roots are planted in the past
And though my life is changin' fast
Who I am is who I wanna be
A single mom who works two jobs
Who loves her kids and never stops
With gentle hands and the heart of a fighter
I'm a survivor
This is such a strange place to be standing. It really is. I am grateful for my three darling angels and for the man who gave them to me. I am grateful for my life, though I no longer understand it or its' direction. I have doubt about all those "plans" I made years ago. Things I thought I'd never be thinking again have crept in. Worries that I never thought I'd ever face. But I know God is good. He hears us and answers our plea. This just may very well be a time when He needs to carry me through.
Wanna do it with me?
November 26, 2007
Today I went back to work following my maternity leave, and following the schlew (is that how you spell that?) of tips our family boat has taken in the past 3 months.
Today I dropped off my boys at their new school and left my little girl with my mother. There are changes all around me.
Today I found out that my job might be going away sometime between now and mid-January. Well, I guess that was enough of a kick in the ass to help me find a new one... fast.
Today I have to call my attorney and ask some really tough questions.
So, it's all brand new.
Also, as I am now back to work, I should be able to upload photos sooooooooon. You poor blog readers. I'm so sorry! My life has been turned upside down and while I am pleased to tell you I finally DID get out my camera to capture pics of my sweet baby, it has been far too catastrophic to even think of uploading until now. I will try to do so more often. Halloween pictures await!
November 12, 2007
October 31, 2007
We are handling this all as best we can, doing the schlepping, the logistics of daily life while at the same time trying to deal with caring for this loved one and more. But it is hard. Harder than I can explain here. I am lucky that I have such a strong family and wonderful friends to rely on to help lift me up.
I hope to post Halloweenie pictures later this week.
PS - In baby news, Mabel's umbie FINALLY fell off a few days ago - it held on for almost 4 weeks. I can't believe my baby girl is already over a month old. It's so sad how fast time flies. Hug your babies and your spouse, people. Do it now. It's worth it.
October 26, 2007
Here's one the inexperienced photographer shot of my daughter's upper nostrils as I stood on the sidelines and tried to gently say, "shouldn't we sit her up more? I can see right up her nose... I'm not going to like this... please, can we move her?" to no avail:
This one would have been my most favorite if the photographer actually knew what she was doing - and that you DON'T SHOOT UP A BABY'S NOSTRILS. Seriously.
I did end up with this gem (I have NO IDEA how):
October 25, 2007
The two chefs:
Lots of fun!
October 19, 2007
First, Mabel needs this ballerina stocking
and I've been dreaming of getting her a Corolle baby
Hoping to find some cheap-ish beanbags somewhere less expensive than Pottery Barn Kids