December 31, 2008
Some of the things I have heard or discovered in the 2 hours since:
- Shoes' mother said that I must have reached into Mabel's closet and pulled out all the ugly clothes for her visit. I am incredibly hurt but not surprised. Yes, Shoes' mother only believes you look pretty if you're dressed like a 1980's hooker. Consequently, she never liked my looks.
- I was told that Shoes' mother also commented on how, this week, they would get some good food in them, finally.
- Shoes' mother (can you see a pattern here?) was very mad when I phoned because it was "dad's time" after all. No mention of how her son refused to visit his kids for almost 6 months, no. Nope. Because he's perfect, don't you know?
- All 3 of them are sick and strung out. Exhausted and emotional about everything.
- Both of the boys had their heads shaved. (Moo's curls were not damaged, thank God.) Both say they hate it, but they'd never tell their dad that.
- Shoes told me that he hoped Andy would shoot me with the bow and arrow Santa brought him. Seriously.
I knew I wouldn't have to ask a single question to find out how their visit went. Because it's not fair of me to ask and put them in the middle. This doesn't bother me because I also knew that they would tell their mama anything they were thinking, which is how all of this came out. They trust me - and that is a great feeling.
I'm sure there will be more. And yes, if you're curious, taking the high road all the time DOES give me headaches. I wish I had a little more 'kick ass' in me sometimes.
We head home soon. I can't wait. More then...
December 24, 2008
First, we are in Ohio. It was Dad's turn with the kids this Christmas, so I was the grown-up and drove an accumulative 17 hours so the kids could see him for the first time in 5 months. He refuses to visit them in Da Plains. They have looked forward to seeing him for a long time. There is a lot of pressure for this trip.
It was confirmed yesterday that Comfy Shoes is wearing another pair of feet. ?? My metaphors are slurring. He has a girlfriend. A serious one. Who has 2 children. There is a lot more detail to this, but out of respect for her privacy, I will not say more today. But this obviously adds even more pressure because the kids will meet her on Christmas. Ambush-style, I'm afraid. They know nothing about her yet.
I am fighting off feelings of vomit in my mouth, honestly. I am okay with the girlfriend, but I am not okay with some of the details I can't share. Sorry. Suffice it to say, it's hard to know Shoes has been ignoring his own children completely for months in favor of someone else's.
I got my hair done today. Back to my natural color. I love it. I feel like me. It was fun to be blonde and I may be one day again, but for now, my wallet will remain much fuller without having to pay for insanely expensive and high maintenance highlights.
That's it for now. Please say prayers for us tomorrow when the 3 little hands pass from my palm to his, for the first time in over 5 months. Mabel may not even know him. The boys are holding him accountable on their own accord. There may be emotional explosions. They will meet Feet.
I have to have FAITH. And breathe.
December 18, 2008
I would like to tell you that yes, I did in fact turn 32 today.
Except something is telling me that I can pause this year, perhaps. I have been through a hell of a lot in the past year. I'd ask for a do-over, except I've loved lots about the past 365 days. Well, the sex hasn't been great because I haven't had any. I haven't loved that part. The rest was fantastic. But I don't feel 32. Can I be 30 again instead?
I had to post today because so many people sent me birthday wishes that I felt bad for having not bragged my birthday was coming up. On Facebook, even. Holy cow! Well, thanks. And, what's up with that?!?!
Even Eye Candy dropped by the blog and left a comment; made me swoon all day long.
It's my day.
I bought some new lacy, lusty intimates from Vicky's for my birthday present. I might not be getting any, but I can look fantastic during my drought.
Lulu is coming over and after we tuck our kids into bed (her entire crew is sleeping over), we're going to watch Season 3 of The Office until we fall asleep laughing our fool heads off. Then tomorrow, more friends are taking me out for dinner and drinks. How lucky am I? Except for missing my mom, BeckAY, and some hot man love, my world rocks right now. I've got a great job, awesome friends, and 3 super cool kids.
I, my friends, am a ROCKSTAR.
December 11, 2008
Anyway, Trevor was leaning on the back of the couch when Olive popped up beside him, like she was late for a party.
*please disregard the shaggy hair; they both wanted to grow their hair out, but they are looking like they should be running with Scooby Doo instead*
Awwww. So sweet. She still looks humiliated, doesn't she?
December 8, 2008
December 6, 2008
(that's clearly not me - and yes, I know it's big... I looooove it)
And some organic wool yarn for my birthday.
And they don't even know it yet. Thanks to Etsy. :)
I'm in a scarf-making mood. Hmmm.... I've been feeling all sorts of creative lately. (Anyone ever tell you that making something with your hands is a good substitute for hanky panky? If they do, don't believe them. It's totally NOT the same.) Ahem.
Anyway, I'm off to bed to watch some tube and sew the binding on my quilt. At least I'm doing something productive in the sack.
Did I really just say that? On my blog? I must really, really, need to make something else.
December 3, 2008
I'm excited to be moving forward in new things, moving on, moving toward... fun. Life.
December 2, 2008
Clearly, I'm beyond thankful for my God, my children, my family, and my friends. So, since they top the list, I didn't include them on this list of things I'm thankful for.
A - apples, honeycrisp and granny smith to be exact
B - British accents; they make me swoony
C - coffee, from Starbucks
D - my dog, even though she looks humiliated and stinks sometimes
E - the still of the early morning
F - fabulous furniture, mid-century modern, to be exact
G - it's a tie between Golden Girls and Grey's Anatomy
H - Heaven, because I can't wait to see my dad
I - Ice cream, soft serve chocolate with crunch coat, if you care
J - Jaegermeister and Red Bull - hey, no shame here - also comfy jeans and Jimmy Eat World
K - a first kiss, or imagining it anyway
L - Love Actually
M -My mom's smell: Sea Island Cotton lotion and powder and tea and yummy
N - New shoes
O - Opportunities, and grasping them with gusto
P - da Plains - still loving it
Q - Q-tips - without them, Trevor would have gardens growing out of his head
R - Random acts of kindness
S - Sewing and coconut shrimp at Bracco
T - tomato soup from Minerva's - absolute the best ever
U - "uh - oh!" - Mabel at 14 months
V - Vintage clothing
W - water - for swimming, for bathing, for playing
X - yes, I'm thankful for my X because while he gives me a headache, he also gave me the 3 kidlets
Y - Y's Buys thrift store (it's not my most favorite, but it's a Y)
Z - zurbts (is that how you spell that?) on Mabel's tummy