August 17, 2009

One More Chunk Of My Story

Shoes contacted me and asked me to remove this post. Because I have a tremendous amount of class when it comes to our history, I am removing it.

I cannot, however, delete your uplifting comments. I am thankful for them.

I know that I am strong and capable, and that I stand firmly on this ground God put me on. I am thankful for my experiences and I am not embarrassed or afraid to share them with the world. Every mistake, every stupid thing I've done. Rest assured, I am not afraid.

My experiences and memories are not law (or libel, for that matter), they are simply my non-contemptuous recollections of how I came to have the wounds I wear. I am proud of them.

But back to that class thing. Yeah, I'm removing this post. It sticks in my craw and smacks of First Amendment censorship... but I'm letting this one go. Picking my battles.





11 comments:

Patchwork Penguin said...
I know I have never experienced anything like this, but I can imagine it is difficult to come to the point where you have to accept that the one you love, the one you have committed your life to is no longer the same person. You made decisions you had to make for you and for your children. You are a good mom....... and they will come to a point in their lives where they will understand and love your for those decisions.Hugs,Nancy
August 17, 2009 6:14 PM

Diva Kreszl said...
Sweet, sweet Rachael! Your post today brought tears and amazement at your strength and resolve. While this terrible ordeal was unfolding how did you keep it together? I am in awe of your strength and how your faith has carried you so far. God has blessed you with your wonderful children and a supportive Mom and I will pray for him to continue to watch and protect all of you. Thank you for the bravery it took to share this story, may it be a healing for you. Bless you, bless you, bless you!!!
August 17, 2009 7:04 PM

Becky said...
You are an excellent mother and very very strong woman!! I am proud of you for getting through it and believing in yourself!
August 17, 2009 7:17 PM

Mindy said...
I love you! I'm so very proud of you for telling your story. This sounds like my Rachel. No fear here. "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear." 1 John 4:18a
August 17, 2009 8:00 PM

Beth said...
oh my gosh. I was holding my breath.Thanks for sharing your story with us. You are amazing!
August 17, 2009 9:52 PM

Wendy P said...
Wow. Your first version was much milder than this! YOU ARE AMAZING.You are so strong, brave and steady. A great mom. You protected your children, which is a mother's first duty. Sounds like you learned from a good mother too.You should have no regrets. You should only feel relief! And your children are going to understand some day how very dangerous that situation was, and what you did to make everyone safe. Congratulations on your new life, and how the past has made you stronger. I bet you now know that nothing will ever be that bad again, don't you?
August 18, 2009 9:04 AM

Cherie said...
God bless you and may he keep you and your children safe. I cannot imagine going through all you've gone through RIGHT AFTER delivering a baby.
August 18, 2009 2:18 PM

Heather said...
We all see things like this in the movies, and know it happens. But to have a real person describe their trials and difficulties dealing with a mental illness is heart wrenching. You are an amazing woman to go through this. Keep your chin up. :)
August 18, 2009 6:21 PM

Angie's Chit Chatting Corner said...
Rachel~God will reward you and your supporters in your time of need with great gifts. Thank you for sharing that.
August 18, 2009 6:53 PM

Lori said...
((big hugs)) i want to say I admire u doing this. It is importat to keep these memories so u dont forget where u come from and why u are doing what u do. Isnt it great how kids can forgive. Once I took a summer class that I had to devote 12 hours of my day to for 6 weeks. my heat ached because i had to check out of home for that time. But on that last day when I came home it was all smiling happy accepting faces from my kids. A reminder that family will always be there no matter how small.
August 19, 2009 8:20 AM

jet said...
You.are.amazing. Really. How you survived that with a newborn I have no idea. Congratulations to you for making it through, not just making it, but thriving. I'm so glad you shared the details of the story. It is YOUR story to tell. God bless you and your babies.
August 19, 2009 11:10 PM

11 comments:

  1. I know I have never experienced anything like this, but I can imagine it is difficult to come to the point where you have to accept that the one you love, the one you have committed your life to is no longer the same person. You made decisions you had to make for you and for your children. You are a good mom....... and they will come to a point in their lives where they will understand and love your for those decisions.

    Hugs,

    Nancy

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  2. Sweet, sweet Rachael! Your post today brought tears and amazement at your strength and resolve. While this terrible ordeal was unfolding how did you keep it together? I am in awe of your strength and how your faith has carried you so far. God has blessed you with your wonderful children and a supportive Mom and I will pray for him to continue to watch and protect all of you. Thank you for the bravery it took to share this story, may it be a healing for you. Bless you, bless you, bless you!!!

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  3. You are an excellent mother and very very strong woman!! I am proud of you for getting through it and believing in yourself!

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  4. I love you! I'm so very proud of you for telling your story. This sounds like my Rachel. No fear here.

    "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear." 1 John 4:18a

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  5. oh my gosh. I was holding my breath.

    Thanks for sharing your story with us. You are amazing!

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  6. Wow. Your first version was much milder than this! YOU ARE AMAZING.

    You are so strong, brave and steady. A great mom. You protected your children, which is a mother's first duty. Sounds like you learned from a good mother too.

    You should have no regrets. You should only feel relief! And your children are going to understand some day how very dangerous that situation was, and what you did to make everyone safe.

    Congratulations on your new life, and how the past has made you stronger. I bet you now know that nothing will ever be that bad again, don't you?

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  7. God bless you and may he keep you and your children safe. I cannot imagine going through all you've gone through RIGHT AFTER delivering a baby.

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  8. We all see things like this in the movies, and know it happens. But to have a real person describe their trials and difficulties dealing with a mental illness is heart wrenching. You are an amazing woman to go through this. Keep your chin up. :)

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  9. Rachel~God will reward you and your supporters in your time of need with great gifts. Thank you for sharing that.

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  10. ((big hugs)) i want to say I admire u doing this. It is importat to keep these memories so u dont forget where u come from and why u are doing what u do. Isnt it great how kids can forgive. Once I took a summer class that I had to devote 12 hours of my day to for 6 weeks. my heat ached because i had to check out of home for that time. But on that last day when I came home it was all smiling happy accepting faces from my kids. A reminder that family will always be there no matter how small.

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  11. You.are.amazing. Really. How you survived that with a newborn I have no idea. Congratulations to you for making it through, not just making it, but thriving. I'm so glad you shared the details of the story. It is YOUR story to tell. God bless you and your babies.

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